Pride and Prejudiced Against Keira Knightly

I'm watching Pride and Prejudice on E! right now. I loved the book but I cannot stand Keira Knightly. I can't stand how she protrudes her jaw whenever she talks. Her "serious" look always consists of her lips slightly separated with her nose stuck up in the air. I never thought she was that great of an actress. Even in the Pirates of the Caribbean movies it was hard for me to watch her. Luckily Johnny Depp's performance made them bearable. It seems that she is the same character in every movie: the young and pretty English girl with a little bit of attitude. Keira is a very pretty woman, which must be why she has been in the movies. I haven't seen her in anything new lately, most likely because she can only be cast in a small amount of roles, since she doesn't have any talent.

Germaphobe

Since probably about the sixth grade I've been obsessed with germs and trying not to get sick. Being at school and other public places would really freak me out. I wouldn't want to touch table tops or door handles and I would wash my hands before rubbing my eyes or eating. I've gotten a little less extreme about worrying about getting sick. It does still kind of freaks me out when someone around me coughs without covering their mouths, but I try not to obsess about it. I have a cold right now and the best I can do is prevent others around me from getting sick. I stayed home from work today just so that I would spread my germs to the other people I work with. Most of them are senior citizens and another has a young child. People should just stay home if they are feeling bad. Don't spread your illnesses!

It's the Final Countdown of the Semester

I feel pretty proud of myself this semester. I would usually put off all of my work until the last minute, but I've been pretty on top of it (for the most part). I've found that for myself, the longer I put it off, the less I want to do it. I think this semester was better for me because I took classes that I actually interested me. I do much better with the writing aspect of media. Last semester I took Intro to Video Production and it was probably the hardest class I've ever taken It was even worse than the math and science class I had! I know that learning about editing and cameras is going to benefit me for my career, but it doesn't interest me at all. I would much rather write or be a talent for a production. I wish there were more classes that focused on that aspect of the media.

Highlights? Help me decide! : )

I'm thinking about getting my hair highlighted for the summer. I've never had it colored before, so I'm kind of nervous about it. A friend of a friend is currently in cosmetology school and can do it fairly cheaply. She's in the "advanced" course and is close to getting her certificate, but I'm really particular about my hair. I've been seeing my normal hair stylist for about two years and we've been talking about coloring my hair for quite some time. I would almost feel guilty giving my business to my friend's friend. Plus, my current stylist knows what I like and has a lot more experience. I am a firm believer of the saying "You get what you pay for," but money is kind of tight. What to do, what to do?

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(This is what I want it to look like)

Pay It Forward (Spoiler Alert)

I watched Pay It Forward for a little bit today. The theme of this movie is that anyone can make a difference, whether you're a child, or an adult. You never know that if what you do or what you say effects others. It has to be one of my favorite movies of all time. I love the concept that a seventh-grader can come up with an idea that changes the world for the better. I think some of the best ideas come from or are inspired by the purity of children. The only aspect of this movie that I just can't understand is why Trevor has to die in the end. Maybe it's supposed to represent the loss of the purity of children? I just don't see how this reflects the overall message of the picture.

Writing for Television

After reading the first few chapters of our TV writing book, I've been thinking about which show I would like to write for if I had the choice. I realized that about 80 percent of the shows I watch on a regular basis are from the 90's and have been off the air for years. I love shows like Seinfeld, Married With Children, Sex in the City, and Everyone Loves Raymond. The only other show I really watch is Lost, but that show has a definite ending and there will be no way to come up with a concept.

The other 20 percent of my television watching is (sadly) reality TV. Now I'm sure that a lot of the situations and scenarios are scripted, but they are all very similar. I don't know how to be a writer for a reality TV show. Actually, I don't think I would want to.

The reason I've been thinking about this is because I have a strong feeling that our next assignment will be to write a script or a spec script. I want to have a few ideas so I'm not struggling to think of something when it gets closer to the end.

Love Is Love

I saw on TV a storyline about a homosexual man who was in a relationship with the man of his dreams. He had told his parents about the relationship, but his partner had not. The partner told his parents that he found the love of his life, but that it was another man. The partner's family told him that he must cut off all ties with his boyfriend or else they would not continue to support him financially, whether it be for school, transportation, or even to stay at the home.

I don't understand how a family can treat their child in this manner. To me, it doesn't matter who you love, as long as you are honest and true about it. I would not disown my son or daughter if they told me they had fallen in love with someone of the same sex. I understand that religious affiliation is a big part of this. To me, it's more important to have an open mind and live a good life... but that's a whole other blog topic.

I think people are most afraid of what is different culturally at the time. For example, when my grandparents were dating, there was a huge stigma on their relationship. My grandmother was raised Jewish, my grandfather Catholic. Her family frowned down upon her relationship, but they made it work.

Hopefully the next generation will be more accepting of people who are different or do not fall into their box of what is acceptable. Everyone just needs to open their minds and their hearts and love each other.

Technology Drama

I just got through watching "True Life: I have technology drama" on MTV. There were two couples that were addicted to their Blackberry's, Facebook, and email accounts. It was to the point that they were having arguments about having a lock on their phone, who was leaving messages on their Facebook and who was leaving emails.

To me, the real issue is about trust. I don't feel the need to look through my boyfriend's phone or any other accounts because I don't feel like I need to. I'm pretty confident that he isn't talking to other girls, or going out to the strip club every night (like the guys on the show were). It's my opinion that if you are suspicious of your mate, and think he or she has something to hide, then they probably are guilty.

I'm not saying that guys are the only ones who are guilty of using technology to keep a secret life. In one of the relationships, the girl was complaining to her boyfriend that he was always on his phone and the internet, but she herself, was just as addicted! Can we say double standard??

Happy Weather Makes Me Feel Happy! : )

This past week the weather has been absolutely gorgeous! It's so nice to wake up with the sun shining and birds chirping. The air even smells fresher. The nice weather makes me feel so rejuvenated and motivated.

I can understand how people get depressed when the weather is dreary. Actually, I think I suffer from that mildly during winter months. I heard once that Seattle has the highest amounts of rainy days in the United States, as well as the highest percentage of suicides per year. Pretty depressing, but I can understand the correlation. Obviously, bad weather doesn't make me THAT depressed, but I definitely lose motivation and feel, well, just blah.

I'm happy that spring is on its way. Spring appears to be on its way at least. Until we get our April in Michigan snow storm.

Thoughts on Dancing Documentary

The schoolkids dancing documentary was my favorite video we watched in class so far. I think it's a great idea to have this course taught in schools, especially in underprivileged communities. It lets the kids something positive to look forward to. It also gives them an outlet for any of the hostility they may have at home or with their friends. Kids need the positive influence from adults as well as their peers. It gives them an opportunity to make new friends that they might not have otherwise even talked to.

On the flip side, some schools may take the competition too seriously, such as the private school that was featured. I can understand the importance of teaching grace and etiquette, but they are just kids. It should be fun for them, not something that could bring them more stress, which is the vibe I got from that institution. That dancing coach made me anxious, and I was just watching her!

I think this class should be taught in more schools. Kids these days need to be taught more than just History, English, and Science. Things like grace, etiquette, and manners are skills that kids will use to benefit them for the rest of their lives. It might even be a good idea to have this as a course college students can take! I would be interested in taking it.

Blog Rage?

I was reading through some of my previous blogs. I'm beginning to notice that this blog is giving me an outlet to let out some of my frustrations with situations in my life. Some of my posts have been lighthearted, but lately it seems that I've been kind of venting to my blog. It's nice to have an outlet; just typing out experiences and leaving them in this web of space is turning out to be more beneficial than I previously thought. Sometimes it's nice to just empty my mind and leave all my thoughts out here. It doesn't bother me that everyone can read this. Actually, I kind of like the idea that one of my peers can read what's happening in my life and offer some suggestions or insight. I hope you guys don't think I'm a master complainer. Sometimes it's easier to rant about the things that are going wrong instead what is going right.

You Never Know Who Can Help You Out

I haven't been able to get a job for over a year now. I've been filling out applications, looking online to see if any businesses are looking for help, and came up with nothing. One of the girls in my program has been working in the Engineering offices for the past nine years. Their department just got approved to have a student assistant. My friend instantly got in touch with me and let me know. I filled out an application and got the job.

Sometimes it doesn't matter how hard you try to look for something. There are times you just need help and this is where having a good rapport with people comes in handy. Just having a wide range of people that you know can help you get where you want to go. Different people have different connections and you just never know how the impression you make on people will effect you. I think having good connections is a big part in finding a job.

Is the Such a Thing as TOO Selfless?

I find myself wondering if I've been trying too hard to do what others want instead of what is best for myself. I've been noticing that there have been things that others want me to do, and I just say yes and make commitments that I end up breaking because I don't want to do them. It's really hard for me to say no to people because I just want everyone to be happy and have a positive view of me.
One instance in particular made me reflect on this.

My friend is leaving for Germany in about a week. She wanted to go shopping to pick up a couple things before she left. She told me that she wanted to go to the outlet mall near Frankenmuth. Even though I didn't want to go all the way out there, I told her I would wake up early and go. The morning of, I really didn't feel like going all the way out there, so I ended up just blowing her off.

I should have just told her from the beginning that I didn't want to go with her. I didn't want her to be mad at me, but I ended up making her frustrated, and got her hopes up besides. I'm going to try to be more up front with people and just let them know right away if there is something I don't want to do, and not feel like I have to be pressured. I know it's going to be really hard for me though.

Vidoe Games Reduce Stress

My brother is really into video games, and has been for about 5 years. He probably has four different counsels with at least twenty games to each. I asked him why he liked them so much. He said that when he's bored or having a bad day, they help him take his mind off of what is bothering him. I never really understood that concept until last week.

My boyfriend and his friends play Call of Duty quite often. They get really into it, screaming and jumping all around because someone stole their kill. I usually just sit and watch them play. Since the graphics are really intricate, it almost seems like a TV show. Plus, watching them is pretty entertaining. One night I was really frustrated and stressed with school and such. My boyfriend had me take a turn playing the video game. It took me a while to get used to the controls and aim but I actually got someone!!! I got really excited and it actually made me feel less stressed. So the next time you feel upset, angry, frustrated, stressed, play a video game for a couple minutes. You will feel so much better!!

Babies Having Babies

I am a frequent watcher of Maury. Even though he usually has guests wanting paternity tests but one episode really bothered me. His guests were teenage girls, none more than 16 years old. All of them wanted desperately to have a baby. Some girls were sleeping with random men, multiple times a day just to have a chance of conceiving.

This completely blows my mind. I know in my heart that one day I would like to have a family, but not for at least five more years. I think these girls are wanting that "unconditional love" that a child brings, but they are obviously not mature enough to provide for them the way a baby needs. I don't think they realize just how expensive having a baby is. Nor are they ready for the grueling sleepless nights.

It makes me think back to when I was 16 and how naive I was to so many things. I have learned so much about myself since then. Who I want to be, where I want to go with my life. Five years doesn't seem like it's that much time, but there were so many experiences, good and bad, that taught me more about myself. These experience I will be able to explain to my daughter or son one day and they will hopefully be able to learn from my mistakes. These teenagers would only be setting a bad example for their children and ultimately ruining their future.

DTE Doesn't Want to Take the Blame

The other night I was watching the news. One of the stories was about a neighborhood in Clarkston that experienced a power surge. About four or five people gave were shown that had experienced burned wires and damage to electronics, most of the costs exceeding a thousand dollars. When they contacted DTE, the energy company would not claim the damages and give the people money. Investigators concluded that it was fault of DTE that caused the power surge.

DTE should have their insurance pay for the damages done to these people's homes. The electrical wiring in their homes caught fire! What if their houses burned down because no one was home to put the fires out quickly. And most of their electronics are ruined! It just doesn't seem like companies stand behind their product anymore, whether it's an actual thing or a service. There is a certain decency that is required when working with the public. People just don't seem to have that anymore.

Have a Problem With Stripping? Then Don't Be a Stripper

This past week the Detroit City Council has been debating on whether or not to close the strip clubs in Detroit. Some members say that closing the clubs will help diminish crime and promote a better way of life for it's people. I completely disagree with this.

I watched a debate about this topic on Fox News last night. I've never been a fan of strip clubs and when I first heard of the possibility of some of them closing down, I was all for it. After listening to their discussion, I changed my mind. First of all, one of the arguments for closing the clubs is the assumption that crime rate will go down. This does not make any sense to me. There is going to be just as much crime as there was before, in my opinion. The people running the clubs, as well as the actual performers, will be out of a job and will be driven to other forms of making their money, like prostitution or drug dealing. I think crime rate would probably get worse.

If these clubs do close, it doesn't mean that people will stop attending. They will just have to travel outside of Detroit ten more minutes to get a peak.

To me, people can do what they want as long as it's not harming others. I'm sure these women working at these clubs are in dire situations, or else they wouldn't be resorting to this line of work in the first place. Just because I don't like the idea of parading myself around in front of a bunch of men, doesn't give me, or anyone the right to judge.

Snow Days Can Screw You Over

Last week, on Tuesday night, there was a snow storm and classes were canceled for the evening. Like everyone else, I was so excited!! I had a paper due for my class that night. My professor had sent us all an email telling us to submit our papers online. For some reason, I automatically thought that she would post a link on Blackboard so we could upload our papers. I waited a few days, still no link. Since there was not a submission link, I thought I would be able to just turn my paper in during the next class. I was wrong. I met with my group a few days later and they said they had all emailed the paper to her. I freaked out. It never occurred to me to just send an email, since I already had in my mind there would be a post on Blackboard. I had this professor last year and I knew for a fact she would not accept late work, so I didn't even bother bringing it up this week. Now, instead of rejoicing about that snow day, I know that if we would have had class I would have turned my paper in on time with no problems. Very frustrating.

Olympics

Since the Olympics started I've been trying to watch the games every night. The games I have been watching the most are the skating, snowboarding, and skiing. It amazes me how much these athletes have trained. They are so dedicated to their teammates, coaches, and to themselves. I love how determined they all are to represent their countries in such a positive way. I don't think anyone can imagine the joy and exuberance of receiving an Olympic medal and standing on that platform waving your country's flag.

But at what price does this great honor, to even compete at the Olympics, cost? I'm sure most of the competitors end up spending a lot of time away from their families. And this year, one man payed the ultimate price, his life, just for the sake of competition. I wonder if his family thought his dedication was worth it. They are left without a son, brother, friend.

A Quick Story of Intuition or Coincidence?

When my mother was twenty years old she was working as a secretary. She was working hard to put herself through college. On a cold November morning, she left for work just like any other day. In the middle of her day, she got the strange urge to write down the words: "I wish I could stay, but I have to go." She had a very eerie feeling, so she crumpled up the piece of paper and threw it away. My mother finished out her day, drove home with anxiety. She walked in the door to her mother and sister crying. My mother's father had passed away from a massive heart attack while at work.

This story has been told to me numerous times. It makes me wonder about a daughter's intuition and the unyielding bond between parent and child. There are always experiences that just cannot be explained, but to me this is a prime example of communication from beyond our realm of comprehension.

Good Customer Service and a Good Product Never Happen Once

I start my day with a large cup of coffee. Often times I will buy a medium Cafe Mocha from Cafe Joe's on campus right before class. I didn't have time today so I stopped there after class. Usually when I go there, there is a girl who is not very friendly. I try to be nice and polite to her but she is always snippy. But she makes the BEST Mochas EVER! There is always the perfect coffee to chocolate ratio. And nothing brightens my day more than a wonderful cup of coffee. I forget about the worker's crabbiness and go on with my day.

Today, however, there was a different girl working. When I walked up to the counter she was really nice and asked how my day was. I ordered the usual and expected it to be magnificent. I took a drink and it was horrible. It tasted like warm milk. Even though the girl was really nice, I'm really mad that I spent over three dollars for a coffee I ended up throwing away.

Now I'm wondering which is worse: having a bad product or a bad attitude??

Drama, Drama. Keep It To Your Momma... Or at Least the Person You Have Drama With

As I told you all in my last blog, I stay with my boyfriend during the week. He lives with four other guys, and three of these guys have girlfriends. Needless to say, the house is always full of people. I try to keep to myself and boyfriend and not get involved with any disputes that may happen between roommates, girlfriends and boyfriends, and girlfriends and other roommates. Last week though, we were all dragged into an awkward situation.

We were all sitting together watching a movie, laughing and having a good time. It is a known fact amongst the people in the house that one of the girls has a bone to pick with another guy that lives at the house. She made it clear to all of us this night when he came home to her complaining and picking a fight. The rest of us were just sitting there, watching and listening to this all happen. I started to feel embarrassed, even though I wasn't even the one getting involved. I felt like saying something like "Can't we all just get along?" but I didn't want to start another argument.

If you have a problem with someone, don't start picking fights in front of other people. It gets really awkward and makes others uncomfortable. The old adage "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all" still applies to us, even though we're in our 20s. If you really want to start something, keep it between you and the other person, not five other people. It's just not classy.

Parking Ticket

During the semester I often stay with my boyfriend at his house in Ferndale. He lives with four other guys so there are always a lot of cars parked in front of his house. Since there is quite a short driveway and a lot of cars, I parked on the street just like any other night. Last night was the big snow storm of the winter. I heard that we were expected to get six to ten inches of snow, but usually there is never as much as the forecasters predict.

So I went to bed dreaming of snow angles and snowball fights. This afternoon, I awoke from my slumber to yelling downstairs. I asked the roommates what was happening. We had all received parking tickets for parking on the street during a snow emergency. I understand why I got a ticket, but I think the circumstances should be taken into consideration. There is a parking lot across the subdivision that is usually never full. But we are not allowed to park there because the spaces are reserved for "customers only". One of the girls (who also received a parking ticket today) got a ticket for parking in that parking lot. There's another lot right next door, but it is for the people who live in the parking complex. Getting my car towed, plus a fee, would be even worse of a penalty.

I'm thinking of fighting my ticket and explaining the situation to someone who might be able to help me. The ticket is only 50 dollars, but I would rather not pay it if I don't have to.

Help Desk Doesn't Help

I went to the help desk on campus the other day with a problem involving my computer. I've always had issues with the supervisors in that department so I was not excited about having to go. The gentleman that assisted me was very helpful and solved my problem. But while he was fixing my computer, one of the supervisors was complaining about how she did not want to be at work and just wanted the day to be over with already. This comment was very unprofessional and showed a lack of customer service. Even if you are having a bad day, do not make it known to your customers. It's just rude.

MJ and Politics

When I was little, maybe four or five, I was in love with Michael Jackson. I would listen to Thriller on record at my grandma's house and dance around the living room. Any time he would be on TV, she would record it on VHS for me, and I would watch it over and over. I had at least four of his albums on cassette and would constantly walk around with my Walkman, singing and dancing. I even named my favorite teddy bear Bubbles.

Like most kids, I grew out of my obsession. He drifted out of my mind until he passed away last July. Since then I bought the CD's of my favorite MJ albums. Listening to his music brings back many memories, but now that I am older, I can really appreciate the messages behind the lyrics. When I was little, I didn't fully get the idea of "healing the world" and that "they don't really care about us". I didn't understand that "Billie Jean" was about the consequences of a one night stand or that "Heal the World" was to promote education about AIDS in Africa. Now that I understand the true messages behind his songs and how much he strove for world peace, I have fallen in love with him all over again.

Put On Blast By the Ex

My ex-boyfriend and I have been broken up for about a year now. While we were together he always wanted to have his own stand-up routine. Through the wonderful powers of Facebook, about three months ago I found out that he would in fact be performing at a comedy club in Royal Oak. When I found out about it I was tempted to go. My current boyfriend lives just outside of Royal Oak, so it would have been easy for me to make the trip. I refrained, however, for fear of seeing him, his friends, or family. And I'm glad I did!

Last week I was perusing good-old Facebook and saw that he had uploaded his stand-up routine onto Youtube. Curious, I watched. It was littered with immature potty humor and variations of jokes that everyone has heard before. In the background was pitty laughter, and the only person I saw clapping was his mom in the front row. But what got me the most was the bit he had somewhere in the middle. He told the crowd that he was single. That he had broken up with his last girlfriend (me) about a year ago because she had come down with a disease called "WHORE". It was the biggest laugh he got all night.

Needless to say, our relationship had ended on a bad note. I'm not sure if he said that hoping I would see it, or not. If I was in his shoes, I would not want the person I was talking about to know I was talking about them in that way. So, word to the wise, don't put something on the internet that you don't want someone to see. They will find it. Word to the wiser, don't be snooping on your ex's. It will only make you pissed.

Vertigo: Not Just a Movie

These past few days I have been feeling very under the weather. My head has been very dizzy and I feel like I have been walking in world that is constantly lopsided. It makes me really tired to do anything simple. Even taking a shower and brushing my teeth has caused the whole room to spin.

I finally went to the doctor yesterday and apparently I have a mean case of vertigo. After my doctor said this I was confused. The only time I even heard of this was when I had to watch the Jimmy Stewart movie in high school.

The symptoms are caused from a problem inside the inner ear that controls balance. From what I understand, everyone has little rocks inside their inner ear that helps with balance. Vertigo occurs when these little rocks get dislodged and float around in spots their not supposed to be, making you feel dizzy and disoriented. It can go away on its own once the rocks get back into place.

I knew I had a couple screws loose, but I thought my rocks were just fine...

Haiti Releif?

After the catastrophe in Haiti, many people, including celebrities, have been stepping up to raise money for those in need. Even though this is a very honorable gesture, I find it hard to support.

Our own country has so many people that are being forgotten about. What about people that are living here that don't have enough to eat. What about the millions of people here without homes or health care. What about the single mothers that have to leave their children home alone every day so they can work two minimum wage jobs just to put food on the table?

What even bothers me more, is that our country is TRILLIONS of dollars in debt right now. Our president is still spending money on a war that he promised to get us out of in 8 months. And what are they even fighting for anymore? Does anyone even know? And where is this relief money ACTUALLY going?

Businesses are failing. People are losing their homes. Our country is in an economic ruin. Before we start extending our pockets to help those in other countries, lets focus on our own people first.

Cooking Experience

I cannot cook, plain and simple. The most that I have been able to make is eggs, noodles, and stuff that you throw in the microwave. However, last week I made an entire meal all by myself, with directions from my boyfriend. He was in class and wanted me to have dinner ready for him by the time he got back. He had a venison roast thawed and wanted it cooked in the oven with potatoes and onion with garlic bread and macaroni and cheese. It turned out really good, but along the way I came across some difficulties. I thought of a few tips for others like me that have not been blessed with the experience of cooking.

1. When pealing potatoes: They can be slippery! Make sure you hold the utensil you are using AWAY from your body and other hand. I came pretty close to slicing my finger.

2. When working with onions: Do not rub your eyes after you have cut an onion. They are really strong. I made the mistake of rubbing my eyes and they burned for about 10 minutes afterward. Not pleasant.

3. When "eyeballing" ingredients: If you think you have put too much of something in to mix (especially a liquid) just roll with it. Trying to scoop out an ingredient is time consuming and it makes a huge mess.

4. While waiting for your meal to cook: Do not get distracted, like looking up videos on Youtube, or going on Facebook. I got so distracted and forgot to flip the meat I was cooking.

5. When pulling contents out of the oven: Everything in there is HOT! The pan is hot. The foil on the pan is hot. The contents are hot. Be very careful! I got a nasty burn on my hand from brushing it just on the grate that holds the pan.

6. Timing is everything: Try to estimate how long each dish is going to take to make. I started my macaroni too soon and it ended up being cold by the time the roast was done.

Some of these things may seem pretty basic, but it would have helped me to know this stuff before I got started.

New Year Realization

I've noticed these past few weeks that being productive is the key to keeping healthy. My plan for the new year was to completely re-vamp my lifestyle: work out, eat healthy, quit smoking, not drink pop, stay productive, not make myself stressed. Now that the month is almost over, it's pretty much impossible to completely change one's lifestyle all at once.

The first day of the new year, I smoked about half a pack of cigarettes. I really didn't have anything to do, so I wasn't very productive. It seemed that this laziness bred more unhealthy habits: smoking because of boredom, eating because of boredom, sleeping because of boredom. Now that the semester has started, I have the chance to be more active and more productive. I am keeping up on my classes and not getting myself overwhelmed. Because I am not overwhelmed, but still keeping busy, I find that I am not smoking as much. Because I am keeping busy, I don't want to sleep during the day, which leads to better sleeping habits.

I haven't been working out like I had originally planned, and I always have to have a cigarette with my coffee in the morning, but overall I feel better with how this year has been going so far. This is going to be my decade, and I'm gonna keep doing stuff to make it so!!

"The Only Thing I Care About is Getting Girls!" (fist pump!!)

I am watching The Jersey Shore for the first time tonight. I've heard a lot about it, but never actually sat down and watched an episode. It makes me wonder what do these people due for a living? How do they make money to go out and party every night? What amuses me is how the characters (and they are characters) go on and on about how much they hate drama, and then continue to create stressful situations for themselves. These kinds of people are the perfect example of shallow, insecure souls who cannot find happiness without consuming obnoxious amounts of substances and meaningless conquests. Is this what we're promoting for our society? Is this what the youth are aspiring to be?

I sit here writing this on a Saturday night. Most people my age are probably going out to a bar (they're weekend routine) and getting hammered. I, on the other hand, would probably be considered "lame" to these people for not going out and joining. Instead I am at home, catching up on homework for next week. This is much more stimulating and satisfying than having the "best time of my life" without being able to remember it the next day. Call me lame, but I'm not going to waste myself.

Tune in to Memories

On my way home from class I heard two songs that each made me have a blast from the past. The song was "Taste of Ink" by The Used. It made me think of one of the friends I used to have when I was in high school. She was my very best friend at the time, and I haven't thought about her in years. We had a falling out about some trivial misunderstandings and just never kept in touch. But hearing this song brought back such a vivd memory of us singing to random songs in her den and looking up random things on the internet. I can remember it all clear as day. It just surprised me that it took me that long for me to be reminded.

The other song that I heard brought me back to my first date. It was "Even Flow" by Pearl Jam. I was with a guy that was "everything I wanted"... or so I thought. He was in a band, played the bass guitar and drove a Honda Civic. (I had a weird taste in stuff when I was younger.) Anyway, we had just got out of the movie theatre. We saw Shrek. We were sitting in the car and he put in the Pearl Jam album. Every time I hear "Even Flow" I think of him, and all the anxiety I felt being on that awkward first date comes back.

It's funny how your mind associates the songs to experiences in your life. It makes memories so much clearer. Even if it seems to be the most random event, it must be of some significance if it is still stored in your brain, right? I thought about this quite seriously on my way home tonight. I then proceeded to run over the curb while turning a corner. I guess I should pay more attention.